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16 Days of torture

Let me introduce you to the whiny Mladen. The one that can cry you a river and drown you in a pool of tears. No it’s not really that bad, I just wanted to share some of my burdens with you guys. 16 days in a row at work is no joke. At least I’m not laughing. The first 8 or 9 days were not that bad but every night after that felt like I was a zombie from the Dawn of the Dead movie. In the morning my legs felt like sugar-free jello, not to mention the head aches that could pierce your skull in. So why? you ask. Why do you have to work 16 days straight.

Ever since becoming a Grocery Manager at the Lawndale Harris Teeter my guys and me have been on a roller coaster ride. We started of shorthanded, trying to build the team up and put the pieces together slowly. When it finally happened I lost my Assistant due to a promotion for him. For a month straight I worked all the time. When we finally got a replacement for him it was all good again until a few months later and my new assistant got a promotion, putting us another person short again. Now it’s me working all the time all over again waiting for my trainee (Jonathan) to finish his classes  so he can be my third official assistant.

Funny thing is that I just applied for a Co-Manager position, which I’m asking everybody to pray for me for. It will get me off 3rd shift, get me more money in the future and help me advance in the company. I am excited but it seems like finally when the pieces are about to fall in place, this time I’m leaving. It seems that wherever I go in the Grocery business bad karma or luck follows me around. I get stuck with the worst management, at the worst store, with the worst conditions, working the most hours, working with a bunch of no good slackers. Maybe the future entails something better then the past has. After all I have to keep my head straight and focus on my vision with God as the front and center.

So there you go. I got it off my chest and now you can call me a cry baby, a pansy, Nancy, little girl or whatever other names you have up your sleeves. Sometimes all it takes is to open up and be real with yourself and others.

By the way I miss this whole blogging thing and I’ll try to keep up with it as I have failed on all of my previous promises.

Love you all and please pray that God gets me some rest cause I sure as heck need it.

Arrogance in Disguise

Proverbs 8:13 “Pride brings destruction and a haughty spirit before a fall. It is better to be of a humble spirit with the lowly than to live it up among the rich and famous “.

Why is pride a sin and more so why is it the one I struggle with the most? Pride is taking God’s glory and snatching it up for yourself. Pride is self-worship at its best. It is arrogance and sometimes its arrogance in disguise. The consequence of pride is huge and I do not want to face it. Satan got cast out of heaven because he thought he could be greater then God himself and could be a better ruler of the world. It says in Isaiah 14:22 “I will rise up against them” meaning the proud. If there was a top 3 sin list, I think adultery, murder and pride would be up there. But lucky for us God views them all the same.

It is very hard for me to write this and revealing to you what has haunted my spirit for years now is a necessary step for me to take. I need prayer and support from everybody. I need accountability and encouragement from my fellow brothers and sisters. My biggest sin is pride. The reason I am revealing this to you now is because I am realizing my consequence. Watching the beginning of Rear Window with Hal, Mike and Jason last night, I know that I shouldn’t wait for somebody to find out my weakness by peaking, I should be bold and say it right here, right now. God wants me to confess and he wants me to do it his way. Yes my sin is pride and worse yet it is arrogance in disguise.

Why disguise? Well it’s because nobody knows that I struggle with this. No, I don’t struggle with it in every aspect of my life but only is situations where I have something to prove. “Work”. I am so inconsistent and so messy. I have worked at my new store for 2 months now and other then one exception, nobody knows that I am a Christian. It is the worst thing I could possibly do. God, I am sure is frustrated with me. My desire to share the gospel with my fellow coworkers is so great but my pride gets in the way. What if they despise me after they find out? What if they stop listening to my directions as a leader? What if they think I’m crazy? They should think I’m crazy. They should know me and that there is a God I follow. My stupid pride gets in the way of Gods plan for me. I am a disappointment and an embarrassment to the Christian. The only thing that is getting me by right now is God’s promise to me and a supporting wife and family in RF.

 So I am not giving up since God has not given up on me. It’s never too late and I will be bold from now on, like I am right now. I will pray for God to give me an opportunity to reveal my true self to my coworkers and to share with them the gospel. Pray for me please and I hope that you don’t look down upon me because of my weakness. I hope that you are willing to help me overcome this hurdle in my life.

Expectations

If you haven’t read my previous post “Unanswered prayers”, then please back up. You will not experience the following blog in full effect if so. Thanks.

Work has been both amazing and stressful in its opportunities lately. I have finally been given a permanent home(store) and the privilege of running my own department. May 16th is the day that I start work at the Harris Teeter on Lawndale. I can not begin to explain how overly excited I am to have the chance of leading my own team to excellence. With the knowledge of it being a brand new store and no current employees, my mind has been full of visions of how I want the place to run and who I want to work with in my department. My brain was and still is overflowing like a boiling pot. Sometimes I wish I had a bigger pot. But maybe the pot is not the problem, it could be the temperature.

Interviews needed to be conducted and still are. I was put in charge of building my team and I had the perfect team atmosphere in mind. Within the first minutes of each interview I was able to decide whether or not the specific person was right for the job. Even knowing this I was still fair and consistent with every interviewee. Something about the saying “at the first impression” was clearer to me then ever. One guy came to the interview in real baggy pants that hung way below what we consider the waistline and a tee-shirt so long that it could have been used as a curtain. The handshake I received was softer then mash potatoes and was the one thing I kept thinking about throughout the entire interview process.  Another guy preceded to lean back in his chair as if he was riding his car, listening to Snoop Dogg. Every sentence he spoke began with a “You know I’m sayin’?” Not to mention the cell phone that kept ringing during the interview.

 I know it’s funny and sad at the same time, but belive it or not, I had a few quite good candidates. Most of the hiring is now complete, but it wasn’t up until yesterday that it came to its final. The people that I have hired have impressed me with their attitudes more then with their experience. Actually none of them had any grocery stocking experience. I was getting stressed out knowing that I needed people with experience to help me open a brand new store. Amateurs(or as we call them “rookies” or “green”) are a long term investment and take time to train and develop and the situation I’m headed into will not give me adequate time to babysit. The crew is to consist of a Grocery manager (me), an Assistant Grocery manager (Jeff, my buddy, with a great work ethic), 3 full time stockers, and 2 part time stockers. So far I have hired 2 part timers and 1 full timer, all which have no experience. With two spots open and a good candidate for one of them (no experience as well) I had no other choice but to pray.

One of my 4 prayers I lifted up to God with confidence last Thursday was about this particular situation. I asked Him to give me a person with experience, a good attitude, and a high energy level to fill the last spot. I was desperate but sure God would provide. Yesterday I was in the middle of an interview and my store manager interrupts me to make sure I don’t leave before I see him. I thought it was something of a lesser significance, but boy was I wrong. The District Manager called for me, to tell me he aquired  an experienced stocker who currently works for Harris Teeter, to join my team at Lawndale. I was skeptical at first. This whole time I had a perfect team in mind and there he is pushing somebody at me like its just an old TV, somebody couldn’t wait to get rid off. “What if he’s slow or has a bad attitude”, those were my exact thoughts. It came to me after I had jumped in my car to drive home. This was God’s doing. I asked him to deliver and he did. I had nothing to do with it. I remembered Pastor Roy’s message this Sunday. I was like Naaman in 2 Kings 5. Naaman expected the prophet Elisha to meet him and cure him of his leprosy. He expected him to wave his hand over the leprosy and call on God to heal it. But instead, Elisha sent out a messenger to tell him to wash in the Jordan River seven times and he would be cured. Naaman was furious and wanted to see a miracle performed by God, not something stupid like jumping into a river seven times. I realized I was Naaman. To stubborn for my own good. I expected to hire this person myself and probably would have forgot to give God the credit.

The lesson is that God never works the way you think He will. You ask for a slice of bread and He will give you a whole loaf. You look for Him in yourself but He will reveal himself in somebody else. You try to lift a stone but somebody else lifts it for you. God is “unexpected”. I trust God that this was the person I have been praying for, even though I have not met them yet. I am so glad pastor Roy preached on Naaman. God intended for me to be in church this Sunday as always. There is a reason for everything.

One more prayer to go. I am shaking right now. I feel like I have just seen the Red Sea part.