Archive for February, 2009

God the Magician

{ February 23, 2009 @ 8:08 pm } · { My spiritual life }
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Somebody once told me that Focus was overrated because you see every blemishing mistake you made but you can’t change it. I let you agree or disagree but I will tell you that I personally have had a lot of questions lately. Questions seem to get me back on focus.  It’s funny because questions seem to be a reoccurring thing with me. Rob Bell once said that asking God questions is a good thing. If you don’t ask how will you ever know.

So I ask this. Can I keep fighting for my wife for a lifetime? Can I truly follow God if I keep obsessing over this one thing? Is moving on okay? Is remarrying okay? Is the best thing to do is leave everything behind and go serve God fully, till the point of hunger and cold? How can I truly serve him here if I am surrounded by happily married couples when God wants me to be single forever? Does God want me to be single forever? Is staying where I am just going to tempt me to get remarried again? And most of all, Why is the Bible not more clear on Divorce and what you can do after?

Can we say frustration till the point of insanity. Yes we can. So then I read John 12:26.  It says: “Whoever serves me must follow me, and where I am, my servant also will be. “

Wow, can we say revelation now. This passage should help anyone struggling with anything, not just divorce. Whenever the bible is not 100% clear on something and it doesn’t say Thou shalt or thou shalt not, you are to fall back on this passage. As long as you are focused on following and serving God, you are doing the right thing. Maybe, just maybe God will take you to another man or woman who he then will make it clear to you to marry again. Then who are we to say no to God. Just follow him and don’t look at what if I did this or what if I did that. Just follow him and he will decide what is best for you, whether that is remarriage or whatever else there could be.

Not every outcome will be the same. Just follow God and trust that he will show you yours. Most of the time this will be completely different then you thought it would be. That’s just how he works. God the magician. He has the element of surprise. Chris Angel who?

The Love Dare

{ February 17, 2009 @ 3:30 pm } · { Movies, Music, Sports..., My spiritual life }
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So I just recently watched Fireproof. I must say that Kirk Cameron has gotten better over the years. I remember the old Left Behind movies and how terrible of an actor he was. I was slightly surprised, too bad the rest of the cast on Fireproof sucked. The movie as a whole wasn’t bad though. Story wise it earned my points, after a lot of frustration that is.

Frustration. That’s what came out of me as I was watching the movie. Not because I was feeling horrible for this married couple but because I was hoping to get some answers for my self.  Don’t you just hate it when someone says:” This or that is the reason why marriages don’t work out”, but then you look at yours and the reason is completely different. That’s what I felt like when I was watching this movie. My relationship issues seem to be so drastically different then the regular sob stories I hear day in and day out, like:” He emotionally abused me, or I had to do everything around here, or we had money issues, or he cheated on me.” So cliche and yet I’m still left without an answer.

But then, there was the Love Dare. Kirk Cameron’s character took a 40 day Love Dare to save his marriage and each day he has to do one special thing for his wife. I though this was a great concept but I was frustrated yet again because I wished I could get a hold of this book so I can try it myself. Funny how fate had me in the Bookstore and right in front of me it was. The Love Dare book just as seen in the motion picture Fireproof. I picked it up and I’m on day 2 now. There are already some very interesting things in there. Who knows, maybe it will be my favorite movie of all time if it gets me my wife back. If not, it’s 2 1/2 stars until then.

What is Love?

{ February 13, 2009 @ 6:01 pm } · { My spiritual life }
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No not the song. What is love, really?

I have really felt lukewarm as of lately. Lukewarm as in just ordinary. I never wanted to be just ordinary for God. I always wanted to do spectacular things with my life. I always wanted to change the life of others through God. Well I have found that I have been doing the exact opposite of that. I have been all about myself. Yeah sure I might help a neighbor out, work harder at work, fight for my marriage, attend church on a regular basis, do things for others when the opportunity presents itself, but I haven’t been TRYING. I have let things come to me instead of being a driving force. I want to be more radical. True love is not being willing to give up your life for another but actually doing it. I am notorious, along with a million of other Christians, for saying it, but not doing it.

I prayed last night and this morning that God makes something in my life happen to where I have a chance to change my life completely for him. For him to do something so I can have a way out of being about myself but all about him. For a way, if he so desired, for me to sell all of my things and go live poor and use all that I have to feed the homeless and tell them about Christ.

I am trying to decipher what he wants me to do. I know, maybe I shouldn’t read into it, but just go and do it. Unfortunatelly my problems are not that simple to solve. Try to decipher wether God wants you to live a life as a husband when you are already married or if he wants  you to sell all of your posessions and go live poor when that would mean leaving your marriage. I don’t know. I hate having to wait. Maybe I’ll write a blog soon about waiting, and how it drives me crazy. Either way, please pray for me, so I can make the best decision for God.

I’ll leave you with a quote from Francis Chan when he was asked if he thinks God calls him to live a radical, crazy life: “It’s not that this lifestyle should be crazy to us. It should be the only thing that makes sense. Giving up everything and sacrificing everything for the afterlife is logical. “Crazy” is living a safe life and storing up things while trying to enjoy our time on earth, knowing that any millisecond God could take your life. To me that is crazy, and that is radical. The crazy ones are the ones who live life like there is no God. To me that is insanity.”

Muse

{ February 11, 2009 @ 8:14 pm } · { Movies, Music, Sports... }
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I have been listening to a lot of music lately. It has sort of been a stress relief. In the process I discovered a lot of new bands and artist that I truely enjoy. Muse is one of those bands. I have heard of them before but could never really get into them. Maybe I just heard the wrong song the first time around. I gave them another listen and I was blown away. They have slowly climbed my all-time favorite list. I think the song Sunburn started my Muse craze. It was their first song off their first album. Ther is something about the keyboards in this song that fascinated me.  Normaly people associate Keyboard sounds with a piano and that makes them associate any song that has keyboards in it as boring. Keyboards are like violins to some people. I don’t understand why. Beats me. But just to try to sway some of you, here is a clip of Muse performing Sunburn live. Amazing…

If you liked Muse and would like to check out more of their music, you have to hear the following songs as well: Uno, Plug In Baby, Feeling Good, Time is Running Out, Hysteria, Supermassive Black Hole. Those are just some of my favorites.

Can’t wait till they tour. I would love to see them live.  Which brings me to my next point. Concerts. I will try to go to more shows this year. I really miss the atmosphere of thousands of people singing the same songs. Something about it sends chills through my body. So my first concert this year will be Ben Folds, beginning of March.  I’m pumped.

Later Baby Birds

I’m back… let’s see if I can stick

{ February 10, 2009 @ 10:21 pm } · { Random Talk }
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I don’t know why but I suddenly got the urge to blog again. Last time I got on here I attempted to keep blogging but then it proved that my endurance was that of a fat man at a triathlon. I’m gonna put more effort behind it this time and actually try to be an adhesive of sort. Glue like to the blog world. Please don’t hold me accountable though because it will be even more devastating to have to hear my own failures being rubbed in.  Just enjoy I guess and feed of the words from a man who is at times speechless and drink from the creativity from a man who is at times scatterbrained. I don’t promise pleasure but I do hope it won’t hurt. I apologize if it does in advance.

Till we meet again… I shall be back. Until then, here is a video to make you smile for now.

Flight Of The Conchords: The Tape of Love