I have never had a really good relationship with my sister. She is not at all to blame for this, it is for sure my fault. We were so close when we were growing up and once we did grow up I abandoned her. I might sound really harsh when I say abandoned because it wasn’t as if we didn’t talk anymore, I just spend very little time with her and when I did I pretended like I was in a bad mood. I regret all that I did now and God has convicted me of it.
My mother is absolutely right. I am doing all of these things for other people but nothing for my family. In the midst of trying to be a great Servant it is easy to forget about family when the focus is on others. It doesn’t make it easy that my family aren’t Christians and that they don’t understand my views, but that shouldn’t stop me from being there for them, actually it should encourage me to do so more. I truly love my sister and I know she has the biggest heart in the world. For somebody to go through surgery after surgery all of their life and not being able to drive at the age of 29 and still be positive is what you call character. 29, alone, no friends, trouble with the English language, not a great student, always stuck at home with parents, and friends that have always left her, and a brother who isn’t there. This would be too much on any person but Tanja is the strongest individual ever.
On Friday I took her to Borders and we talked. We talked for 2 hours about a lot of things and it felt so good knowing that just like that we have a relationship again. I will make it a commitment of mine to see her twice a month and spend quality time together. It was really fun listening to her tell me about her life and me telling her about Christ. She will come to the patio soon I hope. I want you all to meet the strongest person in the world even though she only stands at 5 foot 1. I just pray that from now on we stay close like brother and sister should.
