Archive for July, 2007

I like big bibles and I cannot lie

So I just heard of this rapper named Dan Smith. He remixed Sir Mix-a-lot’s all famous song :”Baby got back”. Its the funniest thing I’ve seen in a while. Enjoy.

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Movie Update

Disturbia DVD

Went to see this together with my wife, Mike, Hal, and Cassi at the 2 dollar theatre. Loved it and its my favorite movie so far this year with Breach being a close second. Keep in mind before you criticize me that I wait for movies to come out on DVD before I watch them. Going to the theatre when movies first come out can become way to expensive, even though its very tempting. I’m still waiting to see 300, Zodiac, Fracture, The Lookout, Amazing Grace, Spiderman 3, Oceans 13, Pirates 3, Ratatouille, Transformers, Hott Fuzz, The Hoax, 1408, Evan Almighty, and the Lives of Others. Yeah I know, I still got a lot of catching up to do.  But so far Disturbia gets my vote. Shia Lebouf is a new Tom Cruise. Watch what I am telling you. Very talented. 8 out of 10.

Breach DVD

I can see how people thought it was very slow paced but I like slow paced movies sometimes. I loved how it was based on a true story and that nothing was taken out from its originality. The acting was superb, especially Chris Cooper. I have not seen anybody play a creepier guy since Anthony Hopkins as Hannibal or Robin Williams in One Hour Photo. Loved this movie. 2nd best of the year for me so far. 8 out of 10.

Déjà Vu DVD

I wasn’t going to watch this at first but a lot of people told me it was good. I like Tony Scott and Denzel Washington together. Afterall they made A Man On Fire together, which is one of my favs. There is something about Tony Scott and the way he does his camera work that fascinates me. He uses 4-6 cameras in each scene and sometimes more then 6. He gets all the angles on film and then he cuts and edits them so that it looks like you are on drugs watching his movies. I really like it. The movie was very good. It can’t compare to Donny Darko when it comes to time traveling movies but regrdless it was an entertaining film. Gets a 7 out of 10 from me.

Lucky Number Slevin DVD

Good action, thriller, gangster movie. I’m not a big fan of Josh Hartnett so I was very sceptical. To tell you the truth I wanted to see this movie because of Morgan Freeman and Ben Kingsley. They are both some of the best in the game, especially Ben Kingsley. He could very well be in my top 5 actors of all time, for sure top 10. Anywayd Hartnett ended up being pretty good and Bruce Willis was a very convincing, calm killer. Freeman and Kingsley did brilliant as I expected. I didn’t like the message of the movie or the way every building and place a scene was shot in, looked like it was filmed inside of the Taj Mahal. For the screenplay, maybe forgivness instead of cold blooded revenge would have been better. Still a decent flick. 7 out of 10.

Raging Bull DVD

My classic for the week and wow what a show it was. Robert DeNiro’s best acting performance I have seen. A beautiful masterpiece. Scorsese is a genius behind the cameras. To do this kind of work in the 80’s and then again with the Departed in 06′, amazing. I can see why people have said that this was the best movie of the 80’s.  The downfall of a man who could have been the greatest fighter of all-time. What was great about this movie is that Scorsese didn’t end the movie with La Motta’s final loss. He showed us how a monster of a man, when stripped away from the only thing that made him alive, ended up in total demise. I still liked Rocky better. Something about rooting for a good guy has always been better then rooting for a bad one. 8 out of 10.

House of Sand and Fog DVD

How have I missed out on a movie like this. Ben Kingsley at his finest in a story that will move anybody who watches it. It is such a heavy film that doesn’t really kick in full mode until its finale. It has you captivated and committed to it no matter the outcome. If you are a person who gets to emotional and can’t handle watching difficult or painful stuff then do not watch this movie. But I will tell you that you are missing out on a near masterpiece. 9 out of 10.

Shooter DVD

Entertaining!!! In a film world where action movies aren’t good anymore, this is a pebble in the mix of a bunch of filthy rocks. Not the best action movie I have seen, not even close, but very entertaining regardless. Mark Wahlberg is becoming better with each movie. This is worth a watch if you’re into action flicks. PS: Nowhere near Casino Royale of last year. 7 out of 10.

 Next on the list to watch: Zodiac, Renaissance (Daniel Craig movie, shot like Sin City), Hot Fuzz, 300, The Devil Wears Prada, The Painted Veil, and Rear Window for the classic.

Physically Exhausting & Mentally Maxed Out

Where do I start? Work has been very stressful. I am very shorthanded. My mind is constantly there even when my body is not. This reminds me of the times when I worked at Food Lion. 60+ hours a week, no sleep, constant stress, and no time for my wife. Harris Teeter is nowhere near comparison though. Its ten times easier then it was at Food Lion but when you adapt to new circumstances and get spoiled and then the toys get taken away from you… I think you get the point. I have been struggling with my witness at work, even though I must say it is better then last week. The problem is that my heart wants my mind to only think God at work, but my mind is so overwhelmed with my performance and it is failing miserably.

When I am not at work it is my responsibilities as a husband, church member, family member that keep me in a constant foot race. I wish it was just a race, but it feels like a triathlon. I am realizing that I have too many commitments. I read somewhere that life should go in this order: 1.God, 2.Family, 3.Church, 4.Work, 5.Leisure. My list goes something like this: 1.Work, 2.God, 3.Church, 4.Leisure, 5.Family. Wow, that is terrible. Writing and reading it looks much worse then thinking it. Either way I need to prioritize my life differently. Things are going to have to change eventually. How long I can last this way is only in Gods hands. Oh but I have faith though. I know that He will get me through. A vision is what I need?A vision is what has been pondering my mind lately. What is my purpose in this here life? God. Okay, but what does God want me to do for him? Hmm… I don’t think it’s working at a grocery store, especially since it is the main reason I have no time for Him or my wife. I have to seriously get my knees dirty and pray for God to give me a vision. I want him to give me a sign that clearly says: Mladen, you are to do this for me until I take you home? The patio is a vision and it could be my lifetime vision. But as long as I work for Harris Teeter it will never be my all-in vision. It would be so physically exhausting, which I can handle, but also a risk to my marriage, which I am not taking. I hope that there is a way that in the near future I can have a job where God’s hand is in it and it doesn’t have to jeopardize all I have at stakes.

I am so excited about all of the things in my life, but the time factor is a smack in the face. I hope you guys understand my feelings. I love you all. Keep Christina and me in your prayers. I think we’re just going through a rough time in life and it will end as soon as God is ready. The patio is very important to us and we have made a commitment that will never be broken. God has told us that this is where he wants us and we are here to stay. I just want you guys to understand that when we are unavailable that it is all those other things piling up, it is not us losing interest. Maybe what God is calling me to do is ministry but I am so uncertain and so financially incapable. Maybe He’s just waiting for me to take a risk and a huge risk at that. My foot is to make a step first before I can see God’s hand move. I could be making a major decision in my life in the near future.

Arrogance in Disguise

Proverbs 8:13 “Pride brings destruction and a haughty spirit before a fall. It is better to be of a humble spirit with the lowly than to live it up among the rich and famous “.

Why is pride a sin and more so why is it the one I struggle with the most? Pride is taking God’s glory and snatching it up for yourself. Pride is self-worship at its best. It is arrogance and sometimes its arrogance in disguise. The consequence of pride is huge and I do not want to face it. Satan got cast out of heaven because he thought he could be greater then God himself and could be a better ruler of the world. It says in Isaiah 14:22 “I will rise up against them” meaning the proud. If there was a top 3 sin list, I think adultery, murder and pride would be up there. But lucky for us God views them all the same.

It is very hard for me to write this and revealing to you what has haunted my spirit for years now is a necessary step for me to take. I need prayer and support from everybody. I need accountability and encouragement from my fellow brothers and sisters. My biggest sin is pride. The reason I am revealing this to you now is because I am realizing my consequence. Watching the beginning of Rear Window with Hal, Mike and Jason last night, I know that I shouldn’t wait for somebody to find out my weakness by peaking, I should be bold and say it right here, right now. God wants me to confess and he wants me to do it his way. Yes my sin is pride and worse yet it is arrogance in disguise.

Why disguise? Well it’s because nobody knows that I struggle with this. No, I don’t struggle with it in every aspect of my life but only is situations where I have something to prove. “Work”. I am so inconsistent and so messy. I have worked at my new store for 2 months now and other then one exception, nobody knows that I am a Christian. It is the worst thing I could possibly do. God, I am sure is frustrated with me. My desire to share the gospel with my fellow coworkers is so great but my pride gets in the way. What if they despise me after they find out? What if they stop listening to my directions as a leader? What if they think I’m crazy? They should think I’m crazy. They should know me and that there is a God I follow. My stupid pride gets in the way of Gods plan for me. I am a disappointment and an embarrassment to the Christian. The only thing that is getting me by right now is God’s promise to me and a supporting wife and family in RF.

 So I am not giving up since God has not given up on me. It’s never too late and I will be bold from now on, like I am right now. I will pray for God to give me an opportunity to reveal my true self to my coworkers and to share with them the gospel. Pray for me please and I hope that you don’t look down upon me because of my weakness. I hope that you are willing to help me overcome this hurdle in my life.